Hello Everyone,
I am sorry that it has been awhile since I have wrote any
blog posts. I came on my blog today and realized just how long I have had this
thing. I started out as a high school senior writing this blog for my English
class assignments. Now I am a COLLEGE senior, which is beyond weird to say to
me. But that means it has been nearly four years since I first designed and
created this blog. I have to say that is quite impressive and sad. I don’t think
I would have ever imagined just how much would change, and stay the same in
four years. My senior year in high school was a separating experience for me. I
didn’t feel like I should be in high school anymore and I really didn’t want to
be. Sure I love to learn, but the atmosphere, I was quite over that. I never
cared what party to go to or how much I should drink, I just liked learning and
that was the only thing I appreciated about that year. Now four years later, I
have to say it seems the same but different. I remember growing up and everyone
saying that you will meet the friends you will have for forever in college, and
I am here to say that isn’t necessarily true. College is an atmosphere and
unless you fit into it for four years that isn’t guaranteed. With maturity and
age it makes me sad to think of the people I was once so close with, who know
my everyday things, and now I barely see and barely talk to. I know this
happens, but I think it sucks more when once again you don’t fit that atmosphere.
This past May I turned 21, which is like the holy grail of birthdays in
college. Everyone goes to the bars and you drink an incredible amount of
alcohol, but once again that isn’t my scene or my taste. So where do I fit into
the college atmosphere if everyone I know is doing exactly that for their
birthday. The answer? I don’t. I am lucky to be in a career path/major that is
more family oriented. In fact, I have had this conversation with my roommate
tons of times that education majors are most likely to be engaged already,
already married, or have been in a long term relationship with someone and don’t
plan on being single soon. This atmosphere I do fit. I fit into the idea that I
want to get married, and have a family, but I want that at home, not in College
Park. So even if I make all these friends, the probability of me seeing them
again is low, because who is going to travel all the way to where I live, just
to have lunch (probably just my roommate, but she is an exception). So I face
going into another senior year, and again it is like a separating. I go through
the education and the motions to get to the other side to move to the next
chapter. It happens for everyone, but I guess mine will be sooner rather than
later.
