101 Lists

Lately I have found myself making list after list, one list for stuff I need yet to finish before I got to college, another list for the supplies for school, one list for the furniture for my room..you see how these lists are piling up! For some people lists are annoying and pointless, for me, I see them differently. If I can not actively accomplish things at a specific moment I make a list, I used it for school, and obviously I am using them now. Every new list I make I one, get to forget about something specific so I don't have to remember it by myself and two feel one step closer to college. My earlier post was of worrying about leaving the nest, which honestly is still there, but the atmosphere of college is sucking me in.

By now I have been to orientation, met one roommate, and facebooked others about our apartment in the fall, and with someone drawing my attention to the fact of only 32 days, a little over a month till move in day, I can't seem to get passed the excitement. Excitement of everything, new classes, new people, new place. Don't get me wrong, I am sure that after a week the excitement will wash away and the realization of leaving home will hit me, but as for right now I can't wait. To tell you the truth I can't wait to be in classes again as well. Something about college classes seems new and intriguing, I am hoping that I am right. I do not know for sure where college shall take me in the next month, and I am sure my nights will be late as I have a weakness for procrastination, but I am glad that I am finally making a step towards my career and the rest of my life. So for now I will continue my 101 lists and getting supplies for school, until eventually I have no choice but to put it all in boxes and drive to my new home.

Leaving the Nest

It's June 16th and only two months until Fall Semester in college begins..wow, college. I don't know about other Seniors in the world but it is hard to believe that Senior year and graduation is over and now in the middle between highschool and college. When your small you always wish to be older, to be 13, then 16, then 18. Each time you can't wait to be a little older. Now being guilty of that myself sitting and looking back on the last 18 years of my life is hard to believe. 20's used to seem so far away and now they are only two..And college? well thats a mere less than 100 days for those people who are counting. It's a freeing feeling to know you are moving out and moving away to go to college, even if it is only two hours away, but even then it is wierd to think that everyone, everything, even the four walls that you have grown up in won't be the place you lay you head down at night. It'll be the place you have to drive to go visit, instead of waking up every  morning within those four walls. I'm sure so many people can't wait to be out of their houses, away from the parents they sware are ruining their lives, or away from the people they just can't wait to leave in the dust. But what I think those people are going to find out is just how much they miss when they leave, and just how different things are. I've noticed it with little things, getting mail addressed to me from a school, when normally it was to my parents. Having the place I'm going to live for the next year dealing with me, calling my phone and not my parents. As we take that step into a place that we are bound to learn more than we have in the past, we learn how to handle more of the stuff in our own lives as well. It's a strange feeling wanting to leave and being excited about the whole new adventure that lays in front, but wanting to stay to what is familar at the same time. Some may think I'm crazy but I don't think I'll ever be fully 100% ready to leave the nest..not just yet anyway.